This is the beginning of a new phase for me. I have never blogged before, and am feeling the need to be able to express myself, without ridicule or lack of empathy when needed.
I am married to the most amazing man. Or should I say he was.. Until the stroke, that I CAUSED.
It has been a difficult few years for us. But let me back up a bit. Scott and I met in 1983 at college. We became friends, then took it the next step. Now almost 30 years later, we have raised 2 daughters, and 2 exchange students.
We always tried to give what we thought was right at the time to our children. When times were tough, we had little. When times go better, we had more. The girls always seemed to bicker throughout their years of growing up...I had always hoped that as they matured they would grow to love each other. It has been quite the opposite. They HATE EACH OTHER. When I pay attention to 1 the other hates me, and vice a versa.
The last 3 years have been such a change in our lives. And it all began, when I aspirated into my lungs, which put me in ICU for 2 weeks. 3 days home from the hospital, Scott has a life threatening stroke.
We both were thrust into the retirement world. While we nursed Scott back to health, I continued with serious health issues. When Scott was finally on the mend and was doing better, he tried to go back to work. It was all great, except I became sicker. The diverticuli were taking over my throat, and I was developing strictures, which would not allow me to get adequate nutrition.
I will continue with this blog later. I think I am ready for bed.
